the LOST ones


Casey Elsah Jedrick. Born Asleep January 21, 2009. 39 Weeks, 6 Days.

Well, 2008 was a wild year from the beginning. On February 2,2008, I was divorced from my awful, abusive, negelectful, heartless husband of 1 year, Adam Hanes. I had no children with him, thankfully, because what kind of life would my kids have if Adam was their father? Not a decent one, I'm sure of it. Anyways, on March 7, 2008, I met a man who was so sweet, full of heart, not abusive or neglectful, probably the best man I had. Well, on March 18, 2008, we got engaged. I was so happy, and so was he. We were a family full of love! Anyway, we got engaged, had the wedding set up for February 26, 2009. On June 11, 2008, I discovered I was 9 weeks pregnant. Now, Jeff, the man who I was engaged to, the loveable one, was so excited!! I began getting a little excited myself! I mean, who wouldn't be excited to find out they're pregnant? Nobody I knew!! LOL. Our first ultrasound was on 6/15/08. I was about 9 weeks, 4 days by this time. At 13 weeks on July 17, 2008, we heard a tiny heart beat! It was so special! I was due on January 22, 2009. Well, at 17 weeks on August 11, 2008, we were given the option to find out our baby's sex or not. We said YES!! Then, a few minutes, which seemed like forever, later, my doctor said: "Congratulations you two, it's baby GIRL!!" We were tickled pink!! LOL. I think anyone wants a baby girl! LOL. Anyway, at 21 weeks on September 12, 2008, we heard her heart beat again! It was longer, deeper, and stronger! LOL!! At 13 weeks on July 17, 2008, and now, at 21 weeks, 7 weeks later, on September 12, 2008, it was a total of excellent 164 bpm!! Wondeful!! LOL!! At 6 months on October 14, 2008, we heard a heart beat of 172 bpm!! Wonderful! But, my doctor did say that it was a little high, but it was nothing at all worth worrying about. He told me to relax, do less stuff, rest, ly around, just chill, LOL!! Anyways, at 33 Weeks on November 12 2008, we heard at totally excellent heart beat of 168-171 bpm. We were farther along, and I had gained enough weight (a total of 42 lbs. LOL!). So, my doctor asked if I could weigh my self in his little room. I weighed, before pregnancy, 112 lbs., and now, during pregnancy with 2 months to go, I weighed a total of 154 lbs., which, my doctor, said was healthy, and normal. We had nothing to worry about, he kept telling us. We were getting so anxious and excited!! LOL!! I was a healthy woman, and our baby was doing fine, and happily, Jeff was healthy too, he never got sick, nor did I. We were doing good. At 36weeks on December 31, 2008, We heard at 173-175 bpm heart beat, still within normal, healthy, no-worry ranges. Thankfully. Anyway, on January 19, 2009, I woke up around 4:25 AM with pains, and the feeling of blood. I went to the bathroom, there was blood on my pad. I woke up Jeff, and told him I was scared, so he got up, got dressed, had me eat a waffle with him, and we grabbed our bags and off we go to the Hospital. At 4:42 AM, we arrived at the hospital. We went in, fille dout papers, and such, and we were admitted. We waited 1 hour, 15 minutes for the ob/gyn to come in and do an ultrasound. Finally, even though we were extremely patient, I said: "Could we PLEASE get an ob/gyn in here!" We weren't mad, we were just so worried. At 5:47 AM, we finally got the ob/gyn in by us. He said he just dealt with 56 births in the past hour, and two were still-births. Little did we know that was in store for us and for our baby girl, too. Well, at the end of the ultrasound, eveything and everyone got real quiet. Then, my ob/gyn turned around and faced us and said what we did not want to hear. He said: "I'm very sorry, Jeff, and Elizabeth, but your baby girl has died. I'm so very sorry. You must deliver her." We just broke down cryng. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't anyone? Of course! This was our very first baby! And, she was gone! How did this happen? Why?! WHY!! HOW!! We just cried for 3 straight hours. Well, at 8 AM on January 19, 2009. It took two days. We just couldn't believe it! Our baby girl....GONE!! Why our baby? Why any baby? Here's only 1 answer: God needed special angels, and he only takes the very best! We can't accept it! No! NO! Not our baby, why any baby for that matter?! God needs angels, and ours are so very special, he decides they are just perfect. We will see them again, 1 day. Anyway, on January 20, 2009, at 11:49 PM, I felt a burst and a gush, indcating my water had broke. Our baby girl was coming! At 12:06 AM on January 21, 2009, I was fully dialated!! I did NOT want to deliver her! I did NOT! We still cannot believe, to this day, it has been 11 months, that she is gone. At 12:08 AM on January 21, 2009, our baby girl was born!! She was born asleep, still born, born silent, born sleeping. This is running through our heads to this day: "Doesn't Heaven have enough angels? Our only answer: God needs special angels." She arrived at 39 weeks, 6 days along. She weighed a perfect 7 lbs. 7 oz. 19 1/2 inches. We held her service on January 24, 2009 at 11 AM until her peaceful, beautiful burial at 1 PM. She was so peaceful.
Thank-you so much for reading our story. It means so much. This site is full of wonderful people. May our angels always watch over us and rest peacefully! I send my heart and prayers to the other families affected by these tragedies. Oh, and today, on December 3, 2009, we are 4 months pregnant with baby Micthell, Casey's baby brother, due on May 24, 2010. We are 16 weeks, we just had the 16-week scan on December 2, 2009 at 11 AM to confirm our 2nd baby is a boy. Jeff and I are so very excited!! We know Casey is happy and free from pain and harm, and she is watching over us 24/7. We are so lucky to have such an angel. LOL.
-Jeff Jedrick, and Elizabeth Jedrick.

By Mommy & Daddy. Wrote: 12/3/2009.


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