MY LITTLE ANGEL IN THE SKY(DAMIEN QUEZADA)

I WENT THROUGH MY WHOLE PREGNANCY THINKING THE EVERYTHING WAS OK, BUT IT WASN'T ON DECEMBER 29,2007. I FELT VERY HEAVY FROM MY BACK,IT WAS ACTUALLY GETTINH CLOSER TO MY DUE DATE,SO I WAS HAPPY.THE BABY WASN'T MOVING AS MUCH,BUT TO ME IT WAS OK BECAUSE I HAD A BIG BELLY THERE WAS NO SPACE FOR HIM TO MOVE ALOT,I DECIDED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL WITH MY FIANCE JULIO.WHILE I WAS WAITING TO BE SEEN THERE WAS ONE SPECIFIC NURSE WHO CAME IN AND TOLD ME THERE WERE GONNA DO A SONOGRA BECAUSE THEY COULDN'T PICK UP THE BABY'S HEART BEAT.A DOCTOR CAME IN THE ROOM AND DID THREE SONOGRAM AND THE BABY HEART BEAT HAD STOP.JULIO LOOKS @ ME AND ASK ME IN SPANISH WHAT GOING ON WHEN I TOLD HIM,HE JUST STARTED TO CRY.THE HOSPITAL STAFF TOLD ME TO CALL MY FAMILY MEMBERS TO BE WITH ME ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT WAS MY PARENTS AND MY CHILDREN.
I STILL HAD HOPE THAT DAMIEN WILL STILL BE ALIVE I ASK FOR A C-SECTION BUT THEY TOLD ME IT WAS TO LATE.DOCTORS ORDER TO HAVE ME SLEEP BECAUSE I WAS OUT OF CONTROL.MY FIANCE AND FAMILY THOUGHT I WAS SLEEPING,BUT I WAS SO DRUG UP,THAT I COULD STILL HEAR THEM TALKING BUT I COULDN'T OPEN MY EYES.I FELT LIKE IT WAS ALL A DREAM.BUT IT WASN'T IT WAS A NIGHTMARE.I FELY LIKE MY LIFE WAS ENDING JUST LIKE DAMIEN'S.I WAS SO HURT I DIDN'T WANT TO LISTEN TO ANYONE,I JUST HAD MY OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELING.
THE DOCTORS DECIDED TO INDUCE ME ON DECEMBER 30,I WAS PUSHING AND PUSHING AND HE WONT COME OUT.I WAS SO WEEK I DIDN'T FEEL MY BODY.THEY HELP ME DELIVER WITH SUCTION,WHEN MY BABY FINALLY CAME OUT HE WAS 9LB 12OZ,21 INCHES.DAMIEN LOOK LIKE HE WAS STILL SLEEPING.JULIO CARRY THE BABY,HE BUT DAMIEN ON MY LAP I GAVE HIM A KISS AND I COULD EVEN FEEL HIM BECAUSE I WAS SO NUMB.
THE FOLLOWING WEEK WAS HELL I DID FUNERAL ARRANGEMENT,I COULDN'T BELIEVE I WAS ACTUALLY DOING FUNERAL ARRANGEMENT FOR ONE OF MY KIDS.THE DAY OF THE FUNERAL I GOT ALOT OF SUPPORT FROM MY FIANCE,FAMILY & FRIENDS BUT I WAS NUMB, I FELT LIKE I WAS ALL ALONE IN THE WORLD.THE NEXT DAY OF THE BURIAL THE CASKET WAS IN THE FRONT SEAT AS WE GOT TO THE CEMETARY MY DAD WAS CRYING,HE COULDN'S BELIEVE WHAT WAS GOING ON HE MADE EVERYONE CRY.
IT GONNA BE 2 YEARS AND I STILL FEEL THE SAME I JUST KNOW THAT DAMIEN IS MY LITTLE ANGEL IN THE SKY.REST IN PEACE AND LOVE MOMMY AND DADDY

By MADELINE PARES

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